dead and gone

its been 3 days since we stopped all means of communications.
it appears to be like 3 decades alr.
i still do love you, th fact that im always disappointed, nv changes.

always on th similar-old issues.
it started with a small small test on you.
cant accompany gf on a sat night is no big deal.
but gf cant join you in your slackings with friends, is.

am i not impt?
for nearly 3 yrs. how many times have i spent th day out with your friends & you on a saturday?
out of that, how many days have i asked?
nv once thr's a initiative in asking, hey mind joining my friends & I?
i always do, always.

perhaps you dont like it.
well, why not? not that i nv ask b4.
you said youre fine with that.
and you nv thought of asking me?

not th first time i felt neglected.
i always say "nevermind' to myself.
this time is not all th same.
after all th postings on fb,
th ans i get frm you is,
"if you think i cant give you what you want, sorry about it. i'll not waste your time anymore"

if this is what you have to say, by all means.
you stopped calling, texting. im fine with it too.
it goes to show how much you really really have for me.

falling out of love isnt end of world,
its feeling grieved.
something is dead, nv will it come back.
never ever.


no matter how much i love you, sth is dead.
no matter what it'll all be diff.
i knw i will be v v v v upset.
but what can i do? what you can do, you didnt.
what more?

anw, we wouldnt be seeing each othr alr,
(evn though im thinking to return your stuffs esp your phone.),
i hope one day you'll understand why i left.