Affairs

Im so sad.
I got reminded that my lappie is lost.
I got reminded that i was reprimanded by WT.
Some family issues.

and most of all,
I Miss so many people.
and LianHong!

How i wish,
>that wishes do come true,
i really want to get my lappie back.
i've got alot of impt things inside.
i really wish that i could.

and, 
i have no idea of who is that bastard.

mother fucking asshole.

anyway,
this CNY isnt so fascinating.
it was just,
like this only.

Thoughts for today:
If i can, I will.
and i would definitely make sure you suffer.

I just dunno why.
I used to trust my colleagues out there.
I dont even bother much with my belongings.
why did that guy want to do this to me?
and J8 has so many cases. 
OMG, where is safe?

bloody hell.
My world is black now.

Eleven

I missed my 2 best friends.
I missed working with PS colleagues.
I missed the old days of having fun at sch.

Well, what can i do?
I missed LianHong as well. 

I woke up as soon as mummy calls up today.
and rushed down since its a sat-ur-day.

Today Im a good girl.
I stayed with my parents the whole day!

My baby nephew came over as well,
didnt take his photos since he is sleeping all-the-way.
His face changes again.
Guess its because he is growing!
And he sure grew fast enough

Went for dinner and down chomp pang.
I didnt get out cause im having headaches.
So i slept in the car with meimei (Near 2 hrs)

I guess she didnt sleep as i can hear her sing sometimes.
I was tired and slept through all the way.
The sleep didnt did much to ease the pain
but rather, it allowed me to continue my rest that i missed this morning.

My head still ached.
What is wrong with me?
Im so not excited about new year where i used to!
I hadnt got new clothes nor shoes yet.
Guess what?
Today is 24th.
If maybe perhaps.
I shall search tmr.
yea.

& Happy month-sary to me!
Its !!!!11!!!!! months today.
Many more to come, baby.

Thoughts for today:

If only we could...
reduced our complains for work.
Make use of compliments to enhance each others.
Accept people for who they are.
Listen to each others.
control emotions.

I think work will not be just work,
Everyone will love their god damn jobs.

                                             MY 2 BEST FRIENDS.

                                              MY OVERDUE PICS.

                                                       Isnt him cute? LOVES!!

Im only worth this much.

and that makes me think that im pretty worthless dude.

Things hadnt been very nice on me. I cried my heart out just last night.It was like a ton of rubbish just pouring over me, it made me felt so sick, unfair and I have no idea what to do.

First, during one of those days i told this manager that the colour of the cloths used are wrong. (We actually have a system of certain coloured cloths for wiping different things in our restaurant.)

While in fact he twisted everything up(not everything but almost). So i told him during meeting they(Senior Managers) had already stated their points.

I guess he doesnt understand English or whatsoever. If not, why would he have not understood? We made it so clear! 

So i tell myself not to freaking care so much since he is the one in-charge, and he'd already stated his point. But deep down my heart i know it isnt right and i just dont feel good.

well, fuck care right?

Secondly, during ops hours on one of the days. I reached around 5 plus 6 and there were no managers around. At first i didnt mind much until i feel that almost evryday the same thing would happen. And i finally know why myself. I guess they went smoking, and discussing about work. (Which is hopefully something came out)

Thirdly, I rmbered that i wasnt supposed to be included in ops but three days straight(outta four days) i was there looking after the ops. and i even have to do closing for them. (Though ytd she ask me for help so as to settle staff issues, but still.)This is really freaking me out. 

I didnt really wanna bad-mouthed against them. I just think that there is so much needed to be done and no one is doing. And as much as i wanted to, i cant and i dont see a reason why. Life is just this strange.

All these added up really made me feel upset. Somemore i had a small conflict with that manager ytd. After that still got reprimanded for something so natural. I admit this is my mistake but yet a supervisor for a year doesnt know about it really made me feel ashamed.

I could have really killed myself because of shame ytd, if LianHong wasnt around. Baby, I love you. Thanks for being there, and your shoulder to lie on without minding my tears and mucas on you.

This is officially the worst day of my life. i hate you, 200109

Are you for real or fake?

Im damn fcuking angry this two days man.
cause im the only one who has been going down to help dad.
fcuk.
godamn unfair. 
think that i have nothing better to do is it.

im godamn pissed. Get away from me junks.

seriously this issue bothers me A LOT.
and it affect my mood for both days.
WTH?!!
plus im damn angry with myself too.
why the hell would i wanna help so many people.
ended up i feel like just ending my life.
just like that.
fcuk/

Travel here and there like very fun like that.
In fact it sucks,
it sucks the most when you know the people arent doing it.
and that makes my heart die even faster.
I dont even wanna bother so much.
For once i can really wash my hands off.

Thoughts for today:
I may not be right all the times but i do trust myself.
and if i dont, i dont think anyone else will.
faith lies in our hands and i think only ourself know whether we can, 
or not.

Whatever people may say we can only regard them as a feedback/criticism.
we dont actually have to change.
For we will be too busy to suit everyone.
Trusting each other is the route to leaderships.
For i think if you dont trust your team mates, 
how do we expect them to trust us back?
I learnt this from my captain from both work and basketball.
therefore i assume it suits everything out there.


We have people leaving us every now and then.
But how sure are we,

that they are for real?
or are they playing tricks?


A good leader will not back out during the last quarter,
they fight with the soldiers till their last breath.

and if you are not happy, say it in my face,
DUH!

Thoughts of the day

[Well, as usual today went to helpout dad.]

Bus-ed down and i was wondering all the way.
WHY IS THERE ONLY ONE BUS DOWN TAMPINES FROM SK HUH?

and for goodness sake why there isnt ANY double deckers for it.

IHATESBS.    
'oh-oh'

Went down mfm in the afternoon, prepared to work.
So andrew was like asking how come i was there and i said in reply,"for work".
& he said i didnt have schedule! yup i said,
if you think theres enough manpower then i'll pull out lo.
there goes my good intention.

ended up me and lh came down for nothing.
Im sad cause i wasted half a day, though its partly my fault ;p

i was thinking 'all-the-time', (whenever im free la)
on certain issues.
today i just feel like talking about..

attitude!

well, anyone who'd known me would've known how my attitude sucks at times.
might as well say personality.
Sometimes i feel that i really sucks.
i would flare up for the smallest issue just because i dont like to give up & lose.

& at times i flare up cause i get really angry but i couldnt help it.
people thought i doesnt want to change but i really did tried.
watever, live the way i want.
who cares right.

There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you
I LOVE YOU

 

Auspicious.

Just went to have our supper at Xin Wang's.

Damn full, LOL.but fun!!
will upload the pics next time though.
i hate uploading.

i dunno if its me or my fcuking comp!
its taking ages and im really freaked out.

damndamndamn

know why am i so fcuked up?
beacuse my mood sucks.
all because one bloody (or more?) idiot stole my labtop.
I didnt mind that labtop so much.
but i care about the data inside!


It meant alot to me, sucker.
whoever, whatever.
I am irritated.
this sucks seriously.

I hate you sucker!

Anyways,
Happy belated Birthday,

Suzan!

Thanks for being there peeps.
& Laugh all you want, cause i dont care.

new blog

I got this new blog because my previous one has gone nuts.

I hasnt been updating too cause i didnt really have time to update same thing over and over. but recently, i just wanna talk about those good and bad stuffs all at once!

Ever since i stepped into December, life has become more hectic than ever. With unbeatable sales everyday, we are all tired. Planning for our year end party seems like a break from daily operations for me. Though i still helped out during P.H and normal days ops.

Little fights with lh every two-three days. And we always win together. Small problems soon become an eyesore because we hate to deal with so much of them! Good thing was Khine and Zarmin are like good friends now, again! I am really glad. This is first good news.

Second one: the party that i organised was a success--at least LH, Gabriel, Ralph, Sebas and Khine said so. As for the rest they may not have realised how difficult it is to get it going man. Nonetheless, i appreciate them coming--really. (FYI, those who didnt come didnt even bother to let me know and i hate them!) LOL.

Third: The next day which is Christmas, I got a white Levi's Watch!! Guess what? From MFM!  It is so far the best present for christmas! It is like a reward for the hard work (But i wonder is it for all-year-round hard work or for the party's effort)

Fourth: I got an Iphone like finally for $698, with contract. supposedly, it will be with lh maybe a month later. cause i hate Iphone. (dont ask me why, this is top-secret)

Fifth: I lost my labtop to theives in the outlet! Though it seems like a bad one i still intend to indicate here because life still goes on and it may be a good thing. Others can be reminded to take care of their property, and i think i know who. Should I or not?

sixth: My dad has set up a stall in Tampines selling prawn mee. I have to help out every morn-noon. Isnt it a goddamn good one? Which means i wont be able to work at MFM for morning. And i even have difficulty working at night cause usually im damn tired. (and there goes my money)

seventh: We are meeting up almost eveyday! I suppose this is good for me but rather bad for him cause i seem to know only my trouble and temper, leaving him no mercy. Thank god, i found a good boyfriend. At least for now he is good. ((: ILY

and,theres is just this bad news. To me, it totally sucks. There is one of this guy--E broke off with this girl--J. One of the main reason is because she failed to keep to her promise when she agreed to change her way of approach and speech. This is like what the fuck to me can. Haven heard of a saying : "It is difficult to change one's charcter than to mould the mountains and river" It is just like black pot calling kettle black. I just want to ask one simple question, you choose to be with her because of what? If you cannot accept what she is. And , who is the one who have made mistakes and again but was forgiven? Who was the one who declined on the initial breakup for one more chance?

I may be a passer-by. I am not blind nor deaf. What you are really doing i just kept my mouth shut. How you tackle her i also didnt care much because you hadnt realise she doesnt really care that much on others but you. Yes, she is a fool. She is stupid, but it is because of you. What have she gave up, sacrificed for you. Have you thought through? People says, maybe you want her to leave because you cant afford her happiness when you walk in through that door. Bullshits! I just think to myself: so what?  you think you're great if thats the case? you cant afford her but you can look for other victims?

If you didnt care, then in the first place why do so? Seriously, i have the urge to remove you from my memory list. You are not worth. You are worst than the worst and i cant stand myself wasting time writing about you. Bull-logs.

Im still ok. 

Cool.