believe it or not!

"For beautiful lips, speak words of kindness,

 For lovely eyes, seek the good in people."

Satisfied, or not?

Im trying to change myself for the better these few months and I've realised a lot of things. I was hoping people around would have realised that it aint easy at all. When things go wrong i would flare up. Now i know of a better way to control that. It is to take it easy. Just like when people are in trouble they go to you, and you solve it just like that.

Things happen in their own time, & for a reason. That reason may be to test your ability, or pull your relations closer. How we look at it reflect on how mature we are. No one is perfect, therefore no matter how hard we try there will still be 20% of the population who does not always agree. 

I, too get upset easily at the 20% because I need people to agree with me. I want people to think like me. Realising, I too, was being the 20%. That makes me think back how. If every strives to be the at the top, it will only collaspe. I could have helped people to get up & when its my turn someone will eventually pull me up.

I guess that was one of my wishful thinking too as I've come to know the fact. You count on yourself, & opportunities to get to the top. Provided you have the abilities and calibre. You will fall if you do not have real talents.

Things are pretty complicated.

Happy One Year!
LOTSA LOVES filled. ^^

Nostalgic

We lived for ourselves. The things that we did are not for others pleasure. They are for us, ourselves. We dont have to do things for people to see, & agree. Why do we? Life is for ourselves to fulfill and why live for others? Accept yourself before you expect people to trust you. If you dont give people a chance to guide you, how will you learn? If you insist on your own perspective, how do you seek enlightenment? We know you are emotional animal, but thats not an excuse. Look at things from brighter side. Do not choose to take side. Once you are biased, the conclusion may just be wrong. I hope its time for us to grow. The road is still long. Dont be too hard on ourselves, albeit. 

I miss LH's lips, :p

Short-Listed

Im not feeling so good about this. I dont think I'll get a good start out from this either.
This feeling is simply
Indescribable.

It has to be not-so good.

Attitude

Went down to Bugis with LH just now to get some books. We had our dinner at "Tian Tian Steamboat" Pretty good as we took the "Ma-La" soup. Made my mouth watery and numb at the same time. Its a good place for gathering. Next time shall ask Tine and Jol to join.

While we had our fill, Zheng Guang and Florence came. They were near us so they drop by to hang out for awhile. It was my first encounter with Florence who was LH's pri school friend. I think she is a pretty nice girl. & Zheng Guang were like joking all the way claiming Florence to be his girlfriend. I think ZG wasnt at all a bad guy. He is quite sensible and know quite a few. Did I mention he was an IT genius? Well he sort of is; for some reasons i believed too. I didnt know ZG very long but can see LH trust him a lot. & the way he explained things out in very logical ways, is not something anyone can do it. 

"Be professional!'

I think they might just be together! Though I didnt know both of them too long but I somehow think that ZG is serious. I didnt why I feel this way too. Anyway, I wish them both all the best. To be with the one you loved no matter who they are, they are meant to be there! 

Next, is my future! What am I going to be. What I am looking forward to. I'll update once things are confirmed. I might be jobless or I may be leading a meaningful life. It will happen in just less than a week. So, people. Wish me luck! I just want to do what I liked and what I do best at and being rewarded for what I deserved. I, too wish to do my parents proud! Grant my wish will you? 

ZG says my attitude sucks. I think its true. ((:

I want to get MACBOOK PRO. Can someone lend me his/her credit card for instalment? Pretty pleaseeeeeeeeee?? Im so gonna love ya. ((:

wah

Its Valentine's and both LH and I were working at PS today. We had chicken rice by Gabriel's treat. (But I have to walk a few Kilometres to get it) Meet up LH straight at the stall there though. Finish eating we still gotta do takeaway for our staff. (28 packets mind you). So we each carry one bag. On the way we saw lots of couples; some wearing cute tees, some wore compatibly, few were carrying huge bears, some were with a bouquet of flowers. How i envy them that they were able to celebrate Valentine's. The girls are lucky today.

I am very lucky too, with the guest at The Manhattan FISH MARKET. There were one guy(was with his GF) walked to me and said he is under "reservation". (FYI, MFM only have priority waiting bookings and they do not hold tables until you are there). He only have two pax so I told him I will be getting seats for the other two couple(walk-in guest @ the queue) before him. He was unhappy! So I went on explaining to him because i have already told the guest that their table would be fast and soon they will get their tables and I cant just give him a table straight when there is one. (How would you feel if you are the walk-in guest right now?- I didnt say this to him) He said he called to reserve seats that gave him the right to get the seat before others, and told me to just tell them they are special guest. I spoke to him very frankly that I do not even have their names and i didnt meant to be mean to hold their tables. ( I was all red because I am pissed with his "I-am-the king" attitude. Nevertheless i spoke in a very nice way still, not losing my cool. I told him to wait as there wouldnt be just one table coming out and I would try to get him the more comfortable seats. His GF said okay, with him left speechless. (or maybe he is pissed too). I am very upset at the fact that I didnt gave him a good impression. I tried to but it seem like there is nothing I can do to please him. I lost this guest to myself though. It was fucking irritating. And I wish I could say right into his face: "You reserved but you are not the only one. I have other characters to look after. You are not not the only one who can afford, either." Well, guess what. Its a 24k night. God damn 24, We are the champions. Well done Team. Hereby salute to all full shift staff. They are the heroes and heoine today, and forever. 

Even though he IS annoying, but i still want to please all the guest. Now, this is the part where people become like hypocrites. I am not happy but I cant show it. But, there is absolutely no other way. If you cant control yourself, thats it. I admit, my temper is god damn hard to control. I hate myself all the time. I think Im a failure always. I need a Psychiatrist man.

Valentine's wasnt so yummy today. I felt better ytd even. Im sorry even though I know its useless and I am guilt stricken. Fuck to all the shits.

lost

Met up with Tine & Jol the day before and I remembered telling them that I almost have no friends. Little did I realised actually Im still fortunate. Even if I really have no friends I still have LH, & of course my family. Afterall Im not that pathetic, right?

Anyway, LH & I just went to Sakae Sushi to have buffet and I feel as if i've just lost a battle. The total that we ate was like only <16>44.40. The spookiest thing is; before we left i was reading Naruto and just nice i stopped on page 43( Which mean i continue on page 44) How nice is that?

13/feb is Siang Long's birthday and we celebrated with him at PS outlet. I was so last min la. Forgot to sms others- earlier on (I guess the results should be the same). Hope he enjoyed himself yea (He won $50 plus ((: plus I owe him a present!)

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, HANDSOME

HAPPY VALENTINE'S TO friends

& 

LIANHONG!! muacks ;)