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Its Valentine's and both LH and I were working at PS today. We had chicken rice by Gabriel's treat. (But I have to walk a few Kilometres to get it) Meet up LH straight at the stall there though. Finish eating we still gotta do takeaway for our staff. (28 packets mind you). So we each carry one bag. On the way we saw lots of couples; some wearing cute tees, some wore compatibly, few were carrying huge bears, some were with a bouquet of flowers. How i envy them that they were able to celebrate Valentine's. The girls are lucky today.

I am very lucky too, with the guest at The Manhattan FISH MARKET. There were one guy(was with his GF) walked to me and said he is under "reservation". (FYI, MFM only have priority waiting bookings and they do not hold tables until you are there). He only have two pax so I told him I will be getting seats for the other two couple(walk-in guest @ the queue) before him. He was unhappy! So I went on explaining to him because i have already told the guest that their table would be fast and soon they will get their tables and I cant just give him a table straight when there is one. (How would you feel if you are the walk-in guest right now?- I didnt say this to him) He said he called to reserve seats that gave him the right to get the seat before others, and told me to just tell them they are special guest. I spoke to him very frankly that I do not even have their names and i didnt meant to be mean to hold their tables. ( I was all red because I am pissed with his "I-am-the king" attitude. Nevertheless i spoke in a very nice way still, not losing my cool. I told him to wait as there wouldnt be just one table coming out and I would try to get him the more comfortable seats. His GF said okay, with him left speechless. (or maybe he is pissed too). I am very upset at the fact that I didnt gave him a good impression. I tried to but it seem like there is nothing I can do to please him. I lost this guest to myself though. It was fucking irritating. And I wish I could say right into his face: "You reserved but you are not the only one. I have other characters to look after. You are not not the only one who can afford, either." Well, guess what. Its a 24k night. God damn 24, We are the champions. Well done Team. Hereby salute to all full shift staff. They are the heroes and heoine today, and forever. 

Even though he IS annoying, but i still want to please all the guest. Now, this is the part where people become like hypocrites. I am not happy but I cant show it. But, there is absolutely no other way. If you cant control yourself, thats it. I admit, my temper is god damn hard to control. I hate myself all the time. I think Im a failure always. I need a Psychiatrist man.

Valentine's wasnt so yummy today. I felt better ytd even. Im sorry even though I know its useless and I am guilt stricken. Fuck to all the shits.