Bye Bye

This is for my people who just lost somebody,
Your best friend, you baby, your man or your lady.
Put your hand way up high, cause we will never say bye.
No no no. Mamas daddies sisters brothers friends & cousins,
this is for my people who lost their GRANDMOTHERS
Lift your head to the sky, cause we will never say BYE.

I was joking in the car with my sis, & we laughed hilariously.
Dad looked into the mirror & said,
"Ah ma passed away you guys can laugh till so happy hor"
I said not necessary people pass away must be sad & we cry.
Its a good thg for her actually.
She dont have to suffer alr!

When she is still around, rarely people visit her.
Like alone in the nursing home.
Though she may not rmb whats happening but that is kinda sad.
She became like this because
everyday in the nursing home staring into blanks.
Made her loose control of time,
of the world.

I wont deny when she is in there Im outside enjoying life.
Because it is the fact.
I kinda feel upset because I have never really accompany her.
Not at all. Despite our communications.
I just didnt do it.
If wanna say regret?
Everyhg is too late alr.

Shes gone.
Even if she happen to be still here I doubt anythg will change.
Everyone will continues to lead their lives.
It is only when they need to show face then they come out.
Just like today.

What for?
I do not want to pretend that I feel very upset.
The fact is Im abit happy for her.
Leaving this world, knowing she could join our long lost Grandpa.
Better than stuck in the nursing home.
Cant go anywhr.
& even if people visit her so what?
How long is one session?

Seriously, am i very sarcastic?
I think being ourselves is most impt.
Thats why I choose not to hide my feelings.
Want to laugh; laugh.
Want to joke; joke.
I dont have to sit down, face serious.
Wait for time to pass by.

Dad says this is call show face to people.
If not people think I disrespect.
It is true to what he says,
I want to do what; I do.
Didnt spare thoughts for others,
or care how people around me feels.

Maybe this is my weak point.
But I dare to say it is my strong point too.
Because I think Im more matured enough,
to accept setbacks.

My Shifu says we must generate positive energy.
No matter what you see, they are positive.
Because negative thought are like roots.
Once they get rooted, we find it hard to remove.
Sometimes it requires alot of enerygy to get it all out,
often we givup in getting them out,
& that made us worst.

I believe my own theory,
but people wont recognise.
We cant please everyone, right?