MISSES

i miss so many people.
so many fun times.
so many beautiful memories.

I miss hanging out with JOL & TINE!!
OMG, much less clubbing with them.
i miss lianhong whom i have not met since tuesday!
okay, its wednesday? i dunno.

Things changed dramatically lot & i have no control over it.
why do i have to feel the changes?
why do i feel like giving up?
okay, i'll stop being emo.

i'll like to be more happy.
((:
tmr going to meet baby lo!
yeah.

& not forgetting my offday!
lalalala.

work is hectic, but still we gotta enjoy life right?
((:

Damn long didnt update siol.
kinda miss the feeling of complaining!

well,
life's been so bored.
working everyday.
chalet just finished.

not really fun.
dont even have enough food to eat.
(we have to tabao mac ourselves okay)
everything were like so messy!
okay la, i know not easy to plan a chalet for 8 outlets.
but seriously la, if you got 8 outlet people.
you think 3 bbq pit enough meh?

somemore focus on the wrong things.
stil do invitation card.
its nicely done, but what for?
important ones didnt took care.

i dunno la.
just didnt enjoy.
my staff went, didnt get a prize from lucky draw nvm.
some left with empty hands, and empty stomach.
what the hell.
that wasnt suppose to be.

bitching about her is not good at all/
but i really really cannot tahan.
i cannot take it.

hais.
full of fake people.

IM SO DEPRESSED?

I wish I didnt think too much.
I wish he could just love me more.

I bet you doesnt know how it feels.
& I guess you dosent have the power to
comprehend or understand many things.

Are we near the end of road?
Or perhaps its just another crossroad?
Should I turn right?
Left?
Or just keep walking straight? 

Maybe I should also wait for you.

Tell me what to do.

THANKS

Thank god for letting me off ytd.
I was deeply in pain, felt like end of world (myself actually)
It was like first time ever in my life that I get such excruciating "sensation".

But well, its over. 
Hopefully it will not come back.
Work has been hard.
Things that I thought will be good, not appreciated.
(I picked up from the drain)

Nevertheless,
I still think that I wouldnt be wrong.

I had done so much, putting team before self.
So am I stupid, or is it just one-sided affair?
People who did so much worst gets the trophy,
& polluting enviroment.
I simply dont understand why.

Sometimes things aint goin the nice way.

I pretty much love what I am, who I am, & what i do.
I couldnt care less, I will just twist my fingers & shut my eyes.
Have a good sleep. 
Whatever happens, is not going to be my damn problem.

I wish you guys all the best, nonetheless.

LOVE's birthday is just round the corners.
If it hadnt been for its 21st, I wouldnt bother SO MUCH,
AHA!
I really have no idea what to do except,
to keep asking the same qns over & over again.
Everyday.
s**ns 

As his birthday approaches,
our 15th months is there too!
I am glad, really.
to have him all this while.

He is my support, listener, & all this while my stress-reliever.
He made me know what is love. what is sacrifices.
What is gives & takes.
He made me cherishes so much.I wish we could be like many others.
For my parents didnt very much want to acknowledge the facts.
I didnt want to hide.
But why cant I show. 

Why is it that the word family is smeared?
I do not have a happy family.
Neither happy times outside with friends.
I do not have friends like i used to before already;
partly due to work & they are still unhappy.

But I do cherish what I have.
I did things which might made them happy.
But they didnt seem to notice.
Things that I've done was always ignored,
not to be mentioned.

I've started to hate my life, again.
If not for Love. ((:

Alright, my motive is to mention how much I LOVE YOU.
I miss you dearly too.

Live like life's gonna end any moment.

Super Duper.

Bored+Irritated+stressed+whatever!

Hadnt been updating lately due to bro's return. 
Not very happening as always. No school, only work.
What can happen except to be bullied by staff/guest, right?

Oh, FYI.

Iluma MFM is taking out all GST charge, including a 20% discount.
For DBS debit/credit cards holders, can even enjoy a free starter when purchased of $10. (Including GO! cards) Expiry dates? This May.

Been addicted to MJ recently.
Even though Im originally very addicted to it.
But lost more than I won. Damn right.Haha, poor skills. Lousy hands.
Maybe should try my feet.

I am feeling very normal now.
Maybe lazy,

of work. But ((:

sucks.

okay, Im damn angry (not really that damn). But still..

You are so selfish. 
I am someone who will really appreciate
what people had done for me.

I will return any favour, even double up.
Likewise, same to bad debts.
whatever shits or nonsense you did to me,
I will make sure I do back the same, 
or double the price.
If I have the god damn chance, man.

Relax & watch what I can do.

Bloody Ass-es.

Is this what you've been planning for us?

Had been busy with work lately.
comp at home was down with internet. 
(or so I thought)

Browsing through with songs and found quite a few
that I liked.

Albeit Im still thinking. I was pretty sure Im still a loser.
Wasnt treated like i was, before. That spells it.
I was thinking of joining as ft.
but realises it is so not worth.
(or so I thought)

Imagine a supervisor getting the same pay as a new crew leader.
Tell me what do you see, when you're lookin at me..
Thats what we call it Fate. But to be precise, GDI.
God damn it. 

no more arguments, no more asking,
no more requests, no more confirmation,
no more downgradings.
Im not gonna be that idiot.
(I hope not)

I should see the world like the rest did,
then I will be the one to pass on;
what comes around goes around.
what goes up, must come down.

Life was never easy. Always caught between choices.
Always tempting, sometimes risky. Many a times, unlucky.
& thank god, for giving me all those shits. 
It made me realise much more than those assholes.

Amen.